Blue in the Sky

A lesbian wife and mother tries her hand at something new. Surely there is a hat that fits out there somewhere!

April Begins Sunday April 4, 2010

Filed under: Career,Family,Pregnancy,The Wife & Mother — The Professor @ 8:14 pm

April marks the last complete month of my employment.  Most of the time this job has felt like it would never end, but it’s looking like it actually will.  And soon!  I’ve decided to enjoy these last few weeks in the classroom.  I am certain that I will return to teaching in some capacity, but I don’t know when that will be, so I’m soaking up all the good stuff before I go.  Operation One Month to Go calls for enjoying my students and ignoring my colleagues.  This is also known as Business as Usual.

It seems like my housing prayers will be answered soon.  Early last week Toad got a promising lead (cool house in a cool neighborhood, likely to go fast) through a med school friend and I headed out-of-town bright and early Thursday morning to check it out.  We arranged appointments throughout the afternoon to make the drive worthwhile and although I was WORN OUT by the end of the day, I was fairly certain I had found the place.  We’ll be ironing out the details this week, so it’s not final yet, but I’m optimistic.  Here are the details:

  • First floor condo (built only two years ago) in riding distance of the university that accepts dogs!!!!!!
  • Overlooks a VERY attractive courtyard, with winding pathways, flowers and outdoor fireplaces
  • Two good size bedrooms plus a small study nook
  • Fabulous kitchen
  • Fairly swank gym

I headed out-of-town Friday morning for Toad’s parents house where we spent a quiet Easter weekend, sleeping late and taking long walks and talking outside on the porch.  At 18 weeks, Toad got up on Saturday morning to go on a ride with her Dad.  He claims she’s slowed down a bit, but I wonder about that.  I’m surprised that she’s able to do these things in the 2nd trimester, but as she pointed out, when your Dad is an OB, going for a ride with him is the best way to be on a bike.


Academia is Dangerous Sunday February 14, 2010

Filed under: Career — The Professor @ 2:31 pm

Have you heard the news about the Friday shooting at the University of Alabama?  If you haven’t heard the story, read this little blurb about it here.  I can’t get this off my mind.  Three people killed when a biology professor was denied tenure.  And they were shot at a faculty meeting.  Absolutely awful.  My heart goes out to everyone involved in this situation.  I’ve had very vivid fears of precisely this situation, so when I was talking to Mom earlier this weekend and she passed the story along, I just couldn’t believe it.  But, I also very much COULD believe it and that makes all of it so much worse.


Today I Got There Wednesday January 27, 2010

Filed under: Career — The Professor @ 3:37 pm

My work environment continues to get worse.  Hard to believe.  This morning I hit a new low and I finally just got angry.  Big, huge, overwhelmingly ugly angry.  It’s not something I’m used to.  As part of a leadership training course a few years ago, I underwent all sorts of personality and conflict management assessments.  At the midpoint of the week-long course, we each had an hour-long session with a psychologist to discuss the results of all the assessments we had done.  I can remember this woman looking right at me and telling me that she had never seen anyone with a fuse as long as mine.  When I asked her what that meant, she explained that it takes a VERY long time for me to get profoundly angry (it might only happen a few times in my life), but that when I finally get there, people die.  It’s a big deal.  Yikes!  Obviously she was being dramatic, but I definitely understood what she meant.  It takes ALOT to really make me mad, but when I’m mad it’s best to stay out of the way.

Today I got there.  It’s taken two and half years, but I made it.  The end of my rope.  I’m done.  They’ve got my body going through the motions for the next four months (you’re SO right T), but they don’t have me.  The Professor has left the building.  I might only be numb, but it feels like it’s over.  All of that anger burned the emotional attachment right out of me.  I spent lunchtime looking around for meaningful things to do with myself and as the universe would have it, the monthly volunteer orientation  for the hospital is tonight.  I’m going.


I HATE My Job Monday January 25, 2010

Filed under: Career — The Professor @ 1:48 pm

My nemesis has been promoted.  In spite of the promises that she would be relieved of her duties stat, she not only continues to be here but she is now a Full Professor.  This is a rank that less than 30% of academics ever achieve.  There are many words to describe this situation, but none of them are remotely professional.


Not as Bright as I Used to Be Thursday December 17, 2009

Filed under: Career — The Professor @ 6:43 pm

I guess what they say about age and fluid intelligence is true.  At least I have wisdom to look forward to.  Wisdom is more compelling than cognitive ability anyway.

The good news is that the hurdle has been cleared.  In spite of a significant score drop from 2000, my combined score is sufficient to allow me to be considered for the program I’m interested in.  That’s the important thing.

Who needs to be able to add anyway?


One More Semester Down Wednesday December 9, 2009

Filed under: Career,Daily Life — The Professor @ 1:49 pm

Monday was the last day of classes and exams start tomorrow.  This means that I am smack dab in the center of the “What’s my grade?”  “Do you do extra credit?” “What’s going to be on the final?” vortex.  It never matters that the students have all of their grades and the other two questions have been answered repeatedly throughout the semester.  It just doesn’t matter.  This is my ninth year of teaching and you would think I might have learned this lesson.  Not so.  It’s irritating every single time.

My focus for the moment is on the fact that I’ve gotten one more semester at this university behind me and I’ve only got one more to go.  I can do this.  Next Thursday I am scheduled to take the GRE.  The program I am applying to is looking for 1000 and I’m hoping I can do that.  When I took the GRE last time I cleared that hurdle, but that was 10 years ago. Ten primarily math-less years.  I’m doing what I can on the preparation front and I guess we’ll just have to see next Thursday.  At least you don’t have to wait for your scores to be mailed anymore.  That’s something.

Although exams and grading and the graduation ceremony loom, the end of classes means that I will have more time to focus on this getting into graduate school mission.  The program deadline is December 31.  Here’s what I need to do btw now and then:

  • Request transcripts from college and graduate school
  • Secure three-letter writers (two down, one to go)
  • CV tune up
  • 1000 on the GRE
  • Write statement of purpose/interest

Taking the Good with the Bad Monday November 2, 2009

Filed under: Career,Daily Life — The Professor @ 10:37 pm

The Good

  • We have a contract!  Toad is flying home on a jet plane tonight with a job offer.  HOORAY!!  Toad and the Professor will be moving this summer.
  • House hunting will be shifting into high gear.  Fun, fun, fun.
  • Only six more months in my crazy-a*s job

The Bad

  • I have not a clue what I will be doing in this new place, but I’ve got almost 10 months to figure that out.  Not so bad really.

The Ugly

  • The head of my department informed me that we will have an armored guard on our floor tmw.  Why?  Well, bc the tenure and promotion committee has made their decisions and made those decisions known.  Apparently at least one of my colleagues is not pleased with the outcome.  Yikes.  Always an adventure.