Blue in the Sky

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Daybook – May 19 Thursday May 19, 2011

Filed under: Daily Life,Daybook — The Professor @ 9:27 pm

Outside my window… the sun is shining!  This is unbelievable after what feels like an endless parade of dreariness.  I had begun to think that some kind of ill-advised exchange had been made between the South and the Pacific Northwest.  This afternoon suggests that might not be true after all.  Whew….

I am thinking… about dinnerware and something colorful to go over the mantelpiece and the weekend.

I am thankful for… writers who are overzealous in their love of language.  I listened to Pat Conroy’s My Reading Life (read by the author) this week and am reminded of everything I love about writing, words and being from the South.

I am wearing… a blue tank top and grey pajama pants.

I am reading… Mrs. Dalloway.  It has been much too long.

I am hoping… that Bean takes good naps tomorrow.  So much I need to do around the house.

Around the house… everyone is working for the weekend.  Bean and I can’t WAIT until we can have Toad all to ourselves!

One of my favorite things…

A “picture thought I’m sharing… Jane Mount is my new favorite person.  She paints bookshelves as a kind of portraiture.  I LOVE that idea and am eager to get her book when it comes out. 


Daybook – March 17 Wednesday March 17, 2010

Filed under: Daybook — The Professor @ 12:41 pm

Outside my window… the sun is shining and there are only a few wispy clouds interrupting all of the blue.

I am thinking… about my upcoming call with the Director of the Counseling program.  I will be dialing the number in less than an hour and I’m still not quite sure about what I will say.  Something about changing family structure and thanks for the scholarship (got that notification last night) and oh yeah…. can I put this thing off awhile?  I am also going to ask about part-time options, but I’m leaning towards the possibility of deferring.  I’m not really a part-time kind of girl.  We’ll see what she has to say.

I am thankful for… NyQuil.  I managed to collect some bugs last week on my way out of town and the general yuckiness is making it hard to sleep.  I spent Monday night on the couch, not wanting to transfer bugs to Toad and Bean, but last night I gave all that up.  Back to bed.

I am wearing… grey pants, a blue and white striped button-down shirt, black socks and black clogs.  It’s a conservative kind of day.

Plans for the week… tonight we have an appointment with an attorney.  We had wills and health-care powers of attorney drawn up before we got married, but we didn’t have a baby then.  Of course, we don’t have a baby now but Toad has become moderately obsessed with the idea that if we were both killed on the way home from the hospital the baby would go to the state.  The state!  This is a phrase that I have heard from my wife with alarming frequency this week.  Hence, the appointment.  Bean will NOT be going to the state if Toad has anything to do with it.  And she will.  On Saturday night we’re going to the Fellowship for their annual auction.  This will be our first time, but we’ve heard that it’s lots of fun.  UU’s en masse + alcohol + competition = fun.

I am reading… the new book by Julie Powell.  It’s called Cleaving: A Story of Marriage, Meat and Obsession.  I’m only a chapter in and am already wishing that I hadn’t come into the book with my own expectations.  Although everybody loved Julie & Julia, not everybody is loving Cleaving.  It is really my own reaction to the first book that is probably coloring my perception the most.  There were facets of Julie’s personality that I absolutely loved, but I did NOT love the way she treated her husband.  He was practically a saint figure in the book and she seemed to be too self-involved to truly appreciate him.  Now, I’m twenty pages into Cleaving and she’s cheating on him.  Damnit.

I am hoping… that an excellent rental opportunity falls from  the sky.

On my mind… moving and rental houses and daycare options and how it could change my life to be a Stay at Home Mom.

From the kitchen… the adventure continues.  The cooking mo-jo has not worn out it’s welcome.  In fact, we are even entering new territories.  Can you say, grill?  We can!  Or….. Toad can!  She grilled some mahi mahi on Sunday night and although the recipe did involve avocado, it was mostly a sucess.

Around the house… the absence of Gadget is noticable.  No kitten lounging on the dryer while I do laundry.  No “Damnit Gadget” refrain in all of our conversations.  No cowering Baker behind the bedroom door when it’s bedtime.  No nose kisses for me.  I miss the little man.

One of my favorite things… is tea at bedtime.  It’s a nice little ritual.  Since giving up the booze for Lent, I’ve re-discovered the wonders to tea.  Right now it’s Peppermint with a splash of milk.  Delicious.

From my picture journal… Miss B says “Happy St. Patrick’s Day!!!”


Daybook – February 24 Wednesday February 24, 2010

Filed under: Daybook — The Professor @ 1:17 pm

Outside my window…. winter is back.  Heavy, wet snowflakes are falling, but melting as soon as they reach the ground.  No accumulation.  No school cancellation.

I am thinking… that all of the possibility and ambiguity of this move feels exciting.  At least at this moment.  I’m going to try to hang on to that.

I am thankful for…my wife.  Again.  As always.  Now that she isn’t taking extra hormones, I’m remembering her actual personality.  This is a good thing.  I’m not nearly as good at being the calm one.

From the kitchen…. all sorts of wild and wonderful things.  On the menu tonight?  Mahi Mahi.  With guacamole.

I am wearing… grey pants, a green v-neck sweater and socks striped with green, blue and white.

I am reading…Fieldwork by Mischa Berlinksi.  My MIL liked this one so much that she sent me a copy in the mail.  That was a great surprise!  I love fun mail and I REALLY love books in the mail.  Les and I are protesting our book club’s selection of the new book by the woman who wrote The Time Traveler’s Wife (did NOT like that book) and have decided to read Fieldwork together and discuss.  I’m looking fwd to that.

I am hoping…that Bean keeps on keeping on in his healthy way.

Around the house… times they are a changing.  At church on Sunday there was considerable progress made in the Gadget Relocation effort.  A few possibilities have emerged over the last few months, but I didn’t feel good about them.  However, it turns out there is a retired woman who lives alone and is VERY MUCH a cat person in general and a black cat person in particular whose cat passed away a few months back.  A cat that she had on DIALYSIS for weeks.  Dialysis.  That is major committment people.  She is eager for a new companion and she is anti declawing.  I was practically in tears talking to her.  She plans to call me later this week and do a Gadget test drive.  We agreed that I would bring him over and they could spend a few days together to see how it goes.  I don’t think there is any way she wouldn’t fall in love with him.  I just can’t imagine it.  She seems bright and funny and just the kind of lady that Gadget would charm the pants off.  And she said she’s willing to keep in touch and send me pictures.  Fingers crossed.

One of my favorite things… is watching Criminal Minds with Toad.  This is our new show and I don’t know how we missed it for so long.  We like it so much that we’re thinking about naming the baby Gideon. 😉

A few plans for the rest of the week….The big news is that Bean had a photo shoot on Tuesday morning and she’s looking good.  Two arms, two legs and a nasal bone.  Happy Toad and the Professor.  Tmw night we are getting together with T&J for dinner which is good bc we haven’t seen them yet this year.  Man, it’s almost March.  Friday night the Grabs have invited us to dinner at an organic farm about an hour away.  Interesting.  I’ve seen stories about these kinds of places on the Food Network, but I’ve never been.  We are foot loose and fancy free for the weekend and they say the sun will be shining.

A “picture thought I’m sharing… Stay tuned.  Bean picture coming soon.


Daybook Tuesday February 2, 2010

Filed under: Daybook — The Professor @ 1:49 pm

FOR TODAY… February 2, 2010

Outside my window… there is still snow everywhere.  It started on Friday night and now, four days later most of it is still here.  The skies are grey and we got some sleet during our morning walk.  Yuck.  And the damn groundhog gave us what we knew was coming this morning.  Six more weeks of winter.

I am thinking… that Toad and the Professor will have an exciting announcement to make very soon.  Keep your fingers crossed! 😉

I am thankful for… for the moments when I really believe in my myself.  Particularly thankful when those moments are woven together into entire days.

I am remembering… what flow feels like.

I am wearing… comfy blue jeans, a grey long-sleeved shirt and a blue fleece.

I am currently reading… Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah.  T let me borrow this and I am finally getting to it.  Sixty pages in and I’m hooked.  Nothing like a nice warm novel about friendship when it’s cold outside. 

I am hoping… that I can find some good blogs about writing.  Anyone got any recommendations?

Noticing that… the weather is supporting my emotional unemployment.  I’ve been grumbly about it, but school cancellations are a fabulous outcome of all the snow.  Yesterday I managed to avoid my long teaching day.  I teach a night class one day a week and that night is Monday.  What was I doing yesterday?  NOT being at school.  Check.

Pondering these words… Who could you be if you weren’t afraid to fail?

On the agenda this week… Still pretty quiet around here.  This afternoon I have my volunteer interview at the hospital. I’m excited  to see where that goes, but I am NOT excited about the needles.  Yes, there will actually be needles!!!  Seasonal flu shot and H1N1 and TB.  Wowza.  The forecast is calling for another snowy weekend.  Hard to believe.

Around the house… there are lots of leftovers 😉

One of my favorite things…SNOW DAYS!!!

From my picture journal… stay tuned.


Daybook Thursday January 28, 2010

Filed under: Daybook — The Professor @ 7:19 pm

FOR TODAY… January 28, 2010

Outside my window… the world is bright.  The weather people claim that snow is coming.  We’ll see.

I am thinking… that it is a lot harder to actually stop caring than it is to decide that you’re going to stop caring.

I am thankful for… all of  the good people in my life.

I am remembering… thinking that there is no one in the world that I couldn’t deal with.  Ahh….those were the good old days.

I am wearing… soft old blue jeans, a grey t-shirt and a green fleece.  Oh and green and grey striped socks.

I am currently reading… The Hour I First Believed by Wally Lamb.  Toad gave me this book for Christmas and I held out on it as long as I could.  I love Wally Lamb and I’m loving this book.  It’s rough, but it’s worth it.  

I am hoping… that I have the capacity to emotionally disengage from my job.  I know I need to do it, but man is it hard.  Disconnection is not my natural state.

On my mind… entirely too many thoughts about my job.

Noticing that… spring is going to come eventually.  Today we almost got into the 60’s and although tmw temperatures are expected to plummet, I could feel the possibility of spring in the air this afternoon.

Pondering these words… four more months.  Four more months.

On the agenda this week… not so much.  Life is pretty quiet around here.

Around the house… Toad is cleaning up from dinner, Gadget is sprawled on the back of the couch and Baker is napping on the bed.

One of my favorite things… are warm, colorful socks.  Happiness.

From my picture journal…


Daybook Tuesday January 19, 2010

Filed under: Daybook — The Professor @ 4:26 pm

FOR TODAY… January 19, 2010

Outside my window… the sun is shining brightly.  It’s in the 60’s today.  Perfect!  Such a wonderful break from the cold.

I am thinking… that I love my family.  Toad and I spent the weekend with my parents and it was such a comfy, fun visit.  We celebrated birthdays and had good talks and ate red fish that my Dad caught and made lemonade from the lemons in my aunts’ backyard.

I am thankful for… the safety and security in my life.

I am remembering… all those years of watching Little Boy King as a kid.  I’m pretty sure I watched that movie every Friday before the MLK holiday for the 12 years I spent in public school.  I can still sing the song in fact: “Little Boy King keep your dream close to your heart”.

I am currently reading…. Slow Man.  Still working on that.  It’s a different kind of book, but I’m enjoying it.

On my mind… family and connections between people.  Thinking alot about the people in Haiti.

Noticing that… Baker has now left his mark on every curbed Christmas tree within a 3 mile radius of our house.  I’m not sure what the appeal is, but the boy canNOT walk by a Christmas tree.

On the agenda this week…Hopefully we will have a Toad birthday dinner night.  Her birthday was more than 10 days ago and we haven’t made time for own celebration yet.  This weekend Toad will be headed to Denver for a visit with her brother.  It didn’t work for me to join, so I’ll be home with the boys.  I’ll miss her, but a little quiet time will be a good thing too.

One of my favorite things… is tea with milk before bed.  A new winter ritual.

From my picture journal… a lovely celebration of color.  I didn’t take the picture by the way ;).


Daybook Tuesday January 12, 2010

Filed under: Daily Life,Daybook — The Professor @ 5:34 pm

FOR TODAY… January 12, 2010

Outside my window… it’s snowing!  Pretty cool really.  On our morning walk, there were tiny flakes all around us.  What a fun surprise.  It’s hard for snow to sneak up on us in the south (seems like we hear about the potential for snow DAYS before it actually happens and often it never does), so it’s extra cool when it does.  A magical morning.

I am thinking… that it feels good to be back in the swing of things.  A break is fabulous, but getting back to real life is its own kind of treat.

I am thankful for… everything.  I try to be anyway.

I am remembering… all sorts of childhood things lately.

I am currently reading…. Slow Man by J.M. Coetzee.  I bought this book a few years back bc it won the Nobel Prize and then I realized that it was about a man who loses his leg in an accident on a bike.  Ummm… thank you.  When Toad is in riding shape she can put a hundred miles on a bike in a good week.  This scares me when I stop and think about it.  Small woman and small bike on big roads with big cars.  Yikes.  So, I don’t exactly seek out opportunities to think alot about bike wrecks.  However, Toad is on a biking break so I’m going to give the book a try.  They say it’s good.

I am hoping… for Thursday.

On my mind… life transitions.  Beginnings, endings, middles.  That is the topic for the Connections group tonight, so I’ve been pondering for the last few days.

Noticing that… although January does not mark the end of winter, it really should.

Pondering these words… My wife is 33.  Can you believe that?!  I guess it was bound to happen.

On the agenda this week…tonight is my Connections group at church.  We’re talking about life transitions tonight.  Looking forward to that.  On Thursday night we’re getting together with the Grabs for dinner.  Looking fwd to hearing about their holiday trip to Germany.  Then on Friday we head to Memphis for a visit with my parents.  It’s been a long time and I can’t wait to see them.  Hoping  for a weekend of good visiting.

Around the house… I’m happy that we’re all back together.  Our little rental house isn’t the greatest, but it’s our spot and I love when we’re all in it.

One of my favorite things… is warmth.

From my picture journal… nothing at the moment.