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This Picture Just Makes Me Happy Sunday August 30, 2009

Filed under: Family — The Professor @ 3:00 pm


Is this a great little face or what?  I took this picture during my trip to Atlanta earlier this month.  Miss Bella was willing to pose for a “look what we made!” shot before we put our strawberry muffins in the oven.  Can you believe how pumped she was about baking?!!  She was really into it.  Her kitty had to be involved in the process from start to finish, which made things a little tricky but we managed.  And the muffins were quite tasty!


Recipe for My Perfect Friday Night Saturday August 29, 2009

Filed under: Daily Life — The Professor @ 11:55 am

Given that Friday was T’s birthday, there wasn’t a lot that was needed to make the evening a good one, but we really outdid ourselves.  Here’s the recipe:

  1. A wife who blows off a bike ride (never happens) making it possible for us to have dinner early just like I like it
  2. A burger with mozzeralla cheese and pesto
  3. A side of sweet potato fries with ketchup and lots of salt
  4. Watching a summer storm outside the restaurant window while we eat
  5. Good conversation and beer
  6. Being picked up outside so I don’t get wet because it’s still raining and I did make a special effort with my hair
  7. Stopping by Dairy Queen on the way home to get a Butterfinger blizzard and having the blizzard-maker actually turn it over to demonstrate how thick it is – I didn’t think they still did that
  8. Making it home and in pj’s before 8:30
  9. Watching CSI on the couch and getting extra snuggle mileage during the scary parts
  10. Landing in bed with a new book before 10:00



Tuesday Daybook – 8/25/09 Wednesday August 26, 2009

Filed under: Daybook — The Professor @ 8:07 am

I got this idea from T’s blog.  My BFF is full of great ideas.  I like the idea of capturing some pieces from one day each week.  It might be a nice way to look back on to see how things change over time., or how they don’t.  Here goes….

Outside my window…. it is dark and quiet.  It turns out that the first installation of the Tuesday Daybook is more of a Tuesday Nightbook.  Oh well, it happens when it happens.  The storms that wandered through earlier in the evening have found their way out and stillness has taken their place.

I am thinking… about babies and friendship and Gadget and the course I am teaching online (wha??!!!) and our next babymaking appointment and the list goes on.  What am I NOT thinking about might be a more concise question.

I am thankful for… the sense of connectedness I have felt with myself during the last week.

From the kitchen…. not a peep can be heard.  We met a TTC friend for dinner tonight.  She is almost at the end of her two week wait and trying to keep herself from testing early.  It was an IUI, IVF, progesterone supposititory, estrogen patch, FSH shot kind of an evening.

I am wearing… my most comfy black nightgown.

I am reading… The Universe in a Single Atom: The Convergence of Science and Spirituality by the Dalai Lama.  I had to let Una go when I finished Ahab’s Wife a few days ago and I’m just not ready for fiction just yet.

I am hoping… that I don’t have this job next August.

I am creating… quite a bit lately.  Going to CKC with T really got me back on track.  I’m back to my morning pages and I’ve managed to get down to the basement a little each day for scrapbooking time.  Man do those two things feel good.

I am praying… for clarity and guidance.

Around the house… it is peaceful.  Toad has relocated to the bedroom and is snuggled in with a textbook.  Baker is snoozing on his sofa in the living room and Gadget is curled up in a very small ball on the desk beside me.  I can hear his purrs.

One of my favorite things… is my new hair.  I feel lighter and more put together.  It’s actually easier to deal with and it looks so much healthier.

A few plans for the rest of the week…. Nothing too substantial on the schedule.  I’m happy about that.  We have been out of town quite a bit lately and I’m looking forward to a whole week at home.  Planning to get ahead in my classes (we’ll see how that goes) and carve out a little scrapping time here and there.

A “picture thought I’m sharing… In case you are curious, you read that shirt correctly.  Toad is wearing a shirt that says “Legalize Gay…. Cupcakes”  The missing word is cupcakes.  Who knew?  We found it in Seattle, we thought it was cute, we bought it.  Done.



Looking Ahead Thursday August 20, 2009

Filed under: Daily Life — The Professor @ 4:55 pm



It’s a weird time.  A blurry time.  Lots of changes on the horizons.  Most of the time I’m excited, but sometimes it gets a little scary.  I’ve spent this week in WAY TOO MANY faculty meetings at a university where I’m likely not to be this time next year.  I’m entering the year knowing that no matter what happens, it won’t be forever.  There is a light at the end of the tunnel.  Man does that seem to be shifting my perspective.  So far, the insanity doesn’t seem to be seeping into me.  So far. 

In the midst of a terrible job market, Toad already has two bites on her line.  One of the bites is more of a nibble, but the other is looking really feasible.  In fact, they are flying us both out for a visit at the beginning of Sept.  How exciting is that?  The position is an academic one that pay well, has excellent hours with limited call and in a town we already like.  All of this is moving much faster than I had anticipated (her fellowship does not end until end of June 2010), but it would be FABULOUS to have so much time to plan a move.  That would give me much more time than I had expected to find something career-wise to do with myself.  Exciting.

The first baby try was unsuccessful, but we are sallying forth and maybe the second time will be the charm.  This is a hell of a process and I am grateful for the opportunity to go through it.  I mean that.  We are learning so much about each other and every day I am more and more wowed by my wife.  She is strong and capable and committed to our family.

Also, as of this afternoon my hair looks nothing like the picture above.  I realized a few days ago that I have spent maybe two days this summer without a ponytail.  This is generally a good indication that it’s time for a cut.  Nicole cut 11 inches this afternoon and I now have hair that comes just below my ears.  It’s light and piecey and perhaps makes my face look a bit more angular.  I hope it is.  Regardless of what it does for my bone structure, it signals a shift.  An external signal of all of the shifting beneath the surface.


The Last Hurrah of Summer Tuesday August 18, 2009

Filed under: Daily Life,Family — The Professor @ 7:58 am


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These are the two ladies who shared my last summer hurrah.  I got back home late Saturday night and I’m still blissed out from the whole thing. 


First, there is Miss Bella.  I got to spend two whole days with this girl.  Her Mom and Dad went to work and we stayed home and played.  Hard.  We talked about what puppies say and wagged our fingers so “No more monkeys jumping on the bed!”.  We got an impressive amount of mileage from the hilarity of a sneeze and even baked strawberry muffins. Bella is just so much fun.  A curious, funny, happy girl.  Grateful for the two days I got with her.


Then, there is Bella’s momma.  Yeah.  Such a good visit.  I think we were both relaxed and just eager to spend time together.  Every second felt good.  Talking on the floor while Bella played, watching movies on the futon, eating her cooking. All of that was more than enough, but there was more.  We spent two days together taking scrapbooking classes by day and cropping by night.  Man, it’s been awhile.  This weekend definitely reminded me of what I love about this craft.  All the paper and glitter (who knew I would get sucked into that?) and fonts.  Entirely too much fun.  Reminds me that I need to create this space for myself.


It’s Monday AM – Time for a Little Eye Candy Monday August 10, 2009

Filed under: Movies and TV,Music — The Professor @ 9:24 am

I’m heading to Atlanta in the morning, but today I am continuing in my quest to think about something other than the fact that we might be pregnant.  So…….. what better time to unveil the Professor’s Top Five?!!!  No need to thank me :).

dara#5.  Dara Torres

Ms. Torres is a new addition to the list.  I had never heard of her until last years’ Olympics in Beijing.  Let’s just say I watched a lot of swimming last summer.

KatherineMoennig#4. Kate Moenning

Oh Shane.  Yes, she needs to eat;  yes, The L Word is a sketchy show on a good day; no, I’m not generally a fan of women in eyeliner, but man oh man.  She’s got somethin.  She’s got quite a lot of it.  A kind of glambutch sexual energy.  It’s in the eyes and the way she moves.  Wowza.


#3. Mia Hamm

I can remember the moment it happened.  The summer of 1999, the World Cup.  I’ve never before or since watched so much soccer.  I actually bought and hung a poster of this woman in my closet.  I read every article I could find.  Sure, she had a husband, but that didn’t stop me.  It was love at first sight.  The shy powerhouse of women’s soccer.  Love her.


#2 Jodie Foster

Nothing else to say here.

sexyamysolo#1 Amy Ray

Always in first place.  This woman has made my heart go pitter patter since I was 14 years old.  Toad’s ok with it.


It’s Been THAT Kind of Weekend Sunday August 9, 2009

Filed under: Daily Life — The Professor @ 7:57 pm

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I do love a good weekend at home.  Just regular old boring life.  I guess I’m a homebody at heart.  This weekend has been good for that.  Toad did a moonlighting shift on Saturday morning and another this afternoon, but that has just meant more time for reading and blog surfing and laying around on the couch.  I have managed to clean most of the house, do laundry and get a few back-to-school-tax-free purchases at AnnTaylorLoft.  The remainder of my time has been spent in a decidely non-productive fashion.   Bliss.